I'm starting to worry how i'm gonna finish my holiday homework. Going kampung next friday i am giving up. I am fucking disappointed. I have no motivation. Blf leaving in 4 days fuck la. Not spending tmr with blf. I am going to rot and just die tmr i really dont have any motivation to do any work i swear. I AM SO IRRITATED BY MYSELF I NEED TO SLASH MYSELF atleast i'm bearing the pain from my menses cramps atleast i can get prepared for the pain that i'm gonna feel when i cut myself later at night. Yea man. I expect to bleed a lot. Oh wait i'm not supposed to expect anything in life anymore. Aaaaaaaah yea~~~ which part of my body should i cut. Am i drunk? No no i'm not drunk. I'm fuming mad. Mad at myself.
I'm.a.fucking.horrible.person.
(y am i always not crying y am i always the heartbreaker)