Whoah dusty baby this place.

Alright hello out there. :) I dont really miss blogging cause right now, i dont want people to know what are my feelings, thoughts. They are suicidal. Not to me, to some of you haha. You know the phrase "If you have nothing good to say, don't say anything at all." ? Yea? I've been keeping that in mind. So if there are bad things that i've said, i think they are just the truth that had to be told.

My mind is still adapting to the pressure. At times, I think of doing all the bad things in the world, just because i feel like shit. I wouldnt be surprised if i do end up doing something bad. It's in my blood; the extreme feeling of regret. I hate regretting things i've done but i cant change anything and i guess, it is my fault it is how my life is.

Life is fucking unfair. It fucking is. I dont know why i deserve all kinds of shit treatment from some parties. I've learnt. I've learnt that there are just some things people don't see like: Lies, pretense. Effort can be seen, the will to do something can be felt, happiness sadness can be seen and felt. You get my point? Life is unfair. People who lie and pretend are seen as the good guy while people who possess the most sincere intention are condemned.

I'm a victim of life. Life has taken its toll on me. I give up, i'm going with the flow, i'm looking forward for everything to be over and done with. Simple, yes?